Sleep definitely helps.

I am pretty sure that exhaustion and lack of sleep caused my emotional breakdown the other night. Luckily, the doctor called me back and recommended that I go back on pain medicine at night as obviously I was in so much pain that my body could not relax enough to drift to sleep. So, I took one of the lighter versions of pain meds that I was given and then followed that up with an ambien and I was out cold with in minutes of attempting to go to sleep. Yes! Finally, I slept through the night. The second night I woke about 3 or 4 am and could feel the pain return (the pain meds obviously wore off) but I was able to go back to sleep. I am not sure why because you'd think that after a good night's sleep I'd feel a lot better but I wake up in more pain that I was feeling before. I think maybe I am getting used to the lack of pains on meds over night so when it return it seems worse than before? Who knows. That is the downside to this new plan and for whatever reason the left side expander has been extremely uncomfortable today. I have no idea it feels like it shifted or something and is digging even deeper into my ribs. Ahh. I really wish I could report that things are so much better than a few days ago. They are as far as my emotions goes but I really wish the pain was diminishing a lot more than it is each day. In fact today it was worse. Oh man. I guess no one said this was going to be easy! Tomorrow is Christmas Eve in our house and so I need to focus on that, have fun, and enjoy this special time with my favorite people. After that we head out of town and so maybe all of the distractions will do me good. Merry Christmas to everyone!