Thursday, March 8, 2012
I find myself being super emotional right now. Things that normally would not bother me are pushing me over the edge. I feel like on most days I could cry at any minute. I do not like this feeling but I understand why I am feeling this way. I am not worried, but more overwhelmed. I think that I need to take my own advice that I tell my students, and that the only thing that makes things easier is time. I just found out about my BRCA fate not even two months ago. I am not sure why I am expecting myself not to let it bother me. Of course it is going to bother me, it is life altering news. Like I said before, my entire life is forever changed from this day forward. I don't mean that in a bad way, but either way I am heading down a different path than I originally thought I was. I need to take a step back and stop being so hard on myself. Crying is ok and I need to stop feeling bad for letting myself get emotional (though it has shown up in some inopportune times). I just need some more time, and then it'll be easier, right?