Running gives me the strength to put those worries at bay. To push those worries out of my mind and feel confident in my decision. When I run I feel like I can do anything. When I run I feel powerful, in control, happy. When I run I feel strong physically and mentally. When I am running I am 100% confident that I've made the right choice. I am not sure how the race is going to go down this weekend but I know in my heart that my body and my mind are strong enough to make it happen. I want to finish that 1/2 marathon with a smile on my face (and as a friend pointed out) with tears of joy in my eyes! In just over two weeks when I under go my surgery I will *know* that my body and my mind are strong enough to tackle anything because I completed a 1/2 marathon.
5 years ago, or shoot even 1 year ago I would have never though I would be running a 1/2 marathon. I didn't know I had the strength inside of me to complete such a tough training schedule and race. I also didn't know I was strong enough to decide to move forward with this surgery. There are a lot of things that I did not know. I've learned a lot about myself through this journey. I am nervous about the race on Saturday and I am surely nervous about my surgery but in both cases I will prove to myself and everyone else that I am strong enough to become a half marathoner and strong enough to become a pre-vivor all at the same time.